Drunken Blogging 5 I guess... Initially...

Vestigial and residual. Rhyming and related, both them words, uh-hyuh. Does it make sense that anything vestigial is residual? Or is it the wrong way around? Wait. To be vestigial is to have no use what so ever. To be residual is to be there after being used. There lies the question, then. Is residual vestigial? Should we forget every non-useful thing we ever thought of? Should we forget everything that we did not act upon? Should we have no REGRET? How many vestigial thoughts are formulated every synaptic moment in the continuing process that is your everyday life? To which I add why do we have RESIDUAL memories (redundancy right there) that a few of these vestigial thoughts have made us smile or frown in one way or another. To be like a child with unfettered imaginings and no regrets. But such is not for us. No. We are of course masters of our lives because experience makes us so. Having gone through so much life makes us so. Having so much regret makes us so. How many of us mask regret with the cliché " if I did not go through this, I wouldn't be where I am right now." Mostly used in explanation of how "good" your life is right now.* Yeah. Make yourself believe that. All the choices you made were actually correct! You couldn't have done a better job! You couldn't have been in a better place. A MUCH better place.

But hey. You are where you are. That is a solid fact. And if "if I did not go through this, I wouldn't be where I am right now" helps you cope, then say it with all your heart. It helps me. A lot. I just hope I don't have to rely on that statement too often...


*although somtimes life throws you a curve that actually makes you think it's fair.